The past week was such an emotional roller coaster for me as I wrestled in prayer to discern the Lord's will for me. Lately I've been wondering if it is really time for my time in Botswana to be finished because there is still so much going on here, so much God is still doing, and I have such a great love for these kids and teenagers. Almost every day I'm having to answer people's questions of why I am leaving now. It's caused me to evaluate exactly why I am leaving. Whether that's just the assumed thing to do, or if that is truly the Lord's will.
After an emotionally trying week, lots of time in prayer, journaling, and reading the Word, and seeking the counsel and prayers of many wise people, I feel confident that the Lord is in-fact moving me back home, and although it will be so very difficult to leave these people and this country that I've grown to love, He will help me in the process and lead me into the next season He has for me. I still am very unclear what that is and definitely fight the fear and anxiety of the unknown, but I know that the Lord's plans are perfect and best. This week I've leaned heavily on Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths."
I'm so thankful that the future is in His hands and I can trust Him completely, even with my limited sight, as He leads me step by step.